I found myself at the park writing and taking a mini photo shoot of me with trees that look like nerve endings. ✨Chronic pain can be deceiving. I look fine but I hurt inside: ✨Kind of having a bad day with Pericarditis and not necessarily just some pain in my chest (from barely doing yoga), but some pain mentally. I wonder if I’ll ever be able to get my muscles back, I wonder if I’ll ever be able to enjoy punk shows again, or going out to eat, or having a glass of wine... I feel like everything has changed. As much as I almost secretly wanted certain things to change, the fact is that I have NO CHOICE but to change...if I want to feel better. I am happy I got to walk with the sun ☀️ and the birds n shit. And breathe with no pain. It could always be worse... Definitely had to get my mind off everything.