It's been a year today since I partook in an ayuhasca DMT ceremony. I set my intentions to connect with my highest self, I asked to heal all wounds preventing me from I'm embodying my divine self. About 75% Through the duration of the trip, I was the only person in the room who had not begun having any effects. For 3/4 hours, I sat staring at an exit sign, wondering how my mind was the same. I couldn't fathom that my mind was one way on the way to the ceremony , then after 3 dosages of ayuhasca it still hadn't changed at all. I was SOBER. I was so frustrated, I wanted to heal, I had expected that I needed crazy visualisations and some mind blowing experience to help me heal I expected such even more so while connecting with mama aya.. Finally I just surrendered , I let go, I knew all was perfect and that my human assumptions were not valid. It was shortly after that moment that a voice told me to lay down and prepare for "Descencion." Oh fuck u better believe I dropped my ass to the floor LOL. What happened next however was the biggest mind fuck. My vision began to twirl and began seeing geometries... then I saw myself expand Into many higher forms of awareness and consciousness began to funnel and activate within my body, my DNA and cells, I tasted my Christ essence, my avatar self, I felt the god conciousness.... however while I was watching this process unfold , I realized my mind was the same as before the hallucinations, before the ayuhasca... My mind still hadn't changed. At that moment I knew that 'I am that I am.' At that moment I believed in myself, at that moment I became my biggest fan and cheerleader and motivator. At that moment I knew that all I must do is follow my intuition and higher intelligence without hesitation and that by doin so I would accomplish my divine purpose. A year later, we on mothafucking track. You are your truth.