card 2: 5 of pentacles will you persist in spite of being under represented and overlooked? will you push forward through restriction and mental anguish? 5 of pentacles is isolation of the spirit. 5 of pentacles is being lonely in a crowd. this happens when your fears, which have yet to actually materialize, are driving your survival instincts. this mental hardship persists even though you’ve left traumatic circumstances behind... often, it’s our minds that suffer the most and there’s a shadow waiting to be exposed to the sun. 5 of pentacles indicates that a large piece of your emancipation and happiness begin in your mind. it seems difficult, but really it’s just deciding... deciding against measuring your worth by your productivity. deciding that oppressive circumstances do not define you. attenuating internalized hatred with positive affirmations. if you don’t already have an affirmation: “i am safe. even at rest, i’m a powerful force. i have all the spiritual and emotional support i need to get through this.” and it also helps when you’re a member of your own support system...trust your intuition, it is not here to trick you. this week, take note of the people who show their support. you may have to make initial contact - as you’re pretty skilled at falling off the face of the earth - no shade, you’re just trying to figure out where you fit and that’s fine. however, to get out of this mental rut, focus on the people who have always celebrated you and who continue to be a beacon of light in your life. spend time in their light. soak up their goodness and use their magic as a balm for your wounds. you can’t do this alone, and you aren’t meant to. and hell, maybe being around people who love the shit out of you will finally make you realize just how important you are.