That one time I grew a couple thousand plants in a 400 square foot apartment 💚I grew immensely through this process. Between this adventure starting of January of 2017 while a month later I started the Window Wonderz process.. .. I failed. I failed immensely. I failed often. I killed dozens and dozens of large plants. Small plants. Spent alot of money off "failures" .. I failed. I failed immensely. I failed often. I spent at least $1000 on plexiglass that would never see the light of day. I spent hundreds of hours on an aspect of the process to only change it to a whole new process. "Wasted time" "Too expensive" "The process is not feasible - it takes too long to every turn any profit margin." "I just don't have the energy and focus street the stroke" I need a real full time job" My sobriety and stroke - recoveries - were still very fresh. True love struggles. Depression. Emotionally unintelligent. Can't comprehend time. Can't talk proper. Can't function will after an hour of working. No idea what I was doing. I failed overt and over. I would get very frustrated. Often. You get the idea.. I grew with every mistake. On every aspect of life. Time. Patience. Perseverance. Understanding of reality. Strength of stamina. Dealing with emotions. Noticing my addictive previous life's habits and focusing on them. On how to correct them. Learning. Learning. Learning. Learning. Learning charges everything. No matter what your learning. It changes everything. One little step at a time. All of a sudden I would look back and thing holy shit Jeremy you don't act this way under that circumstances. Your patient. You understand time. You slow down to look within and study the effects of a certain situation. Study the struggles. I fell forwards. I would tip over. Flat on my face. And when I got up again. I was right where my face had landed. Forward. I still struggle. But it is 1000x different than it was. New struggles appear. But I now know how to deal with them fairly well due to the 1000's of times I struggled. I spent easily 3000 hours since I started this journey 1 year ago. Whether working physically manipulating tangible objects or mentally.