•My Vulnerable InnVisible UglyBeautiful Reflection•<1> My existence is Resistance. My existence is Rezilience. I am born by the pains & joys of my ancestors, their dreams, their prayers, their sacrifice & seed, their blood, their love~ the MANA for me to be FREE. At the stroke of midnyt, to the wake of my morning breath, entering a new decade, it was the day i was reminded i was placed on this earth, birth-day. I looked into the mirror, i cried at the pain, the reflection of all the long self-hate i had felt, that i had buried deep, covered. I want to be happy yet underneath i felt heavy in my bones, in my blood. It’s been a lifelong struggle to heal an illusive curse of chronic conditions.. yet‘ lil did i know, it was actually incognito a blessing in disguise..